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| Saturday, December 2nd, 2006 | | 2:09 am |
It is time again
Well I've been waiting god knows when that a certain opportunity gets back to me, I was denied due to my previous diagnosis of Pervasive Development Disorder. I thought I overcame this when I was growing up but I guess those in charge think it would be best for the organization for not to admit me for processing. I do not want to say who the organization is but I still have deep respect for the organization, for what it stands for, and gives me a good opportunity to seek new choices. Let's say I decided to forgo this path sacrificing the one relationship I was really comfortable with but I realize that it is the best for me to break up. I told her about my not being accepted to further the process, our conversation was cut short due to previous tension and understanding that it is the time not for talking. I just want to start over, find a new path, and eventually start a family. It is like Raiden in Metal Gear Solid 2: Son's of Liberty, we must pass on our genes somehow. Man, I am starting to feel like a old leach and not just a leach. I am sorry about the lack of pics of Lina, my 2006 Honda Civic but I hope I get my car washed this weekend. | | Friday, March 17th, 2006 | | 10:28 pm |
I am IRATE about women!!
Hello, it is the first time I actually wrote a Live Journal entry for a while instead of posting a cute quiz that I saw on my friends list. At work today, no comment on where I work at since it is all over the local press due to a certain nationwide mishap, I tried to get a hold of people before 'endoftheline' and the guys at my department decided for me talk to this one female at traffic. Her name was "L", a dyed red haired latina who is very buxom but very American (as in typical American who is from diverse backgrounds but assimilated into the culture by speaking in English and living and working amounghst other Americans, ie the 'melting pot'). Not only she is rather attractive but she is enough of a gaming nerd that she moded her PS2 to play ahem backups. A female in York PA who knows that shnit is on the top of 'get to know you list'. *outside comment, I DO NOT WANT SEX. I just want to know ladypeople better to see if I am compatible or not* We were talking about work and stuff and one of the group mentions I should ask for her number. She was writing down a number but sent it to some older (ie shaggy haired grey dude) and said something about skydiving. Well I decided to take the prerogative (thinking I have the right to ask since I assumed she wants to meet up with me) by inscribing my email, cell number, and my(livejournalwannabesincetheydonothavef ilesizelimits), and whatnot. All she gave me was her "AOL email". I went home, hoping that she would call me to meet up with her at a bar but once I tried to email her around 5ish, AOL sends me back that "user does not exist in database." Cannot someone have the ovaries to state that she does not like me because my percieved mind had made up higher expectations of one said female. I know she was doing her bit by sparing embarasment by her more attractive (to her since I notice what some women want at an early age and not some kind of guy to steady with) coworkers that she would gush over some cute 'but scared guy' or a louder outbust. Damn my politically correct upbringings of trying to be more sensative. It is just hard for a 5'10 male 150ishlb male with no large gut who slouches around to act assertive without looking like I am whining. My clean-shaved, teenaged looking (but actually 23) whiteboy act who doesn't look like I passed puberty does not look macho enough. None of this would happen if certain people think my current relationship is "stuck in the 8th grade". Goddamit, I am tired of either driving all the way or waiting for ones parents so I can see someone who I am very comfortable with. At least when I am with her I just feel safe but nervous by checking the time when I have to go home and all. UGHHH I wish that my family would take our relationship more seriously than just calling it 'puppy love' with 'heavy petting'. Let alone being in a long distance one. I was good at first before I moved away from our old stomping grounds. I guess I am at that age where I want to settle down but I am just starting my life. Only if my parents encourage bar hopping but I have to drive 40 minutes for a decent bar in downtown. Or at least know that I want to be with someone who I don't even see often. Only if only more women would appreciate younger men. That would definately stick it to the man! Matarick go BRAGH!!! Current Mood:  aggravatedCurrent Music: humming comptuer fans | | Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006 | | 2:15 am |
I guess Ray would be rather puzzled by the results. I shall take pictures tommorow of my new Honda 2006 Civic since I got it washed earlier on Tuesday. Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: Ikaruga Soundtrack | | Thursday, June 30th, 2005 | | 2:06 pm |
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| | Wednesday, June 8th, 2005 | | 1:41 am |
Okay, this is what I've done so far
Yay, earlier Tuesday was my day off so I spent most of it having my oil changed and tired pumped. At least I spent some time going to www.gamecellar.net and saw some anime. The shows I watched were Samurai Champloo, Appleseed (older generation), Beck and an anime about a transforming school girl who is a kendo expert, her sister fell in love with a hooligan, and a red eyed boy who is jealous. I think it starts a Ten something. I spent some time with Nikki Saturday and was glad that I was with her. It is hard for this fanboy to get some female loving. I got her a webcam (doubles as a Mic), Homestar Runner Homestar Red 3XL shirt, and Street Fighter Alpha: The Movie. I think she was glad with her presents. I wish I would meet up with her more often but she lives an hour and half away which means $11 of gasoline. Wish me luck since I work for the rest of the week until Saturday. | | Thursday, June 2nd, 2005 | | 1:21 am |
Well, it has been a while.
Alright, it has been a while. I no longer play Final Fantasy XI since May 2004* (I cannot fantom paying $15 for a game that is more labor intensive than essay writing), work at a grocery store, or live in the state of MaryLand. I wish I lived in Asaba Maryland but no, I live in York Pennsylvania. I met some folks with Poseurangas and they seem to be nice folk though. Let's say I work for a business that deals with packages, you know how companies (not for the one I work at anywho) tend to be anal rententive about people talking about work, but that isn't the purpose of my blo... ahem, Journal. My main existence is trying to apply for college and actually having the admisions being sent and stuff. I should print out my application and my essay later int he morning and have it sent via the great USA postal service. Besides working and sending mail, I tend to play video games and gotten back into a fighting game fix with Darkstalkers Chronicle for the PSP, Capcom vs SNK 2, Guilty Gear X2 (awesome with my best bud @ Hanover), and the hardcore fighting games' fan guilty pleasure Marvel Versus Capcom. I want to go back to college and I need that Business Association degree. ^^() Nicha, I hope we can meet @ Saturday *edit: when I wrote last May, I thought it was still May of 2005. I forgot it is June. | | Sunday, April 11th, 2004 | | 10:19 pm |
Happy Easter aka Authorized Bzyantium Jesus worship day
Happy Easter, Passover season, spring equinox, and other holidays I am ignorant of. Well I just finished some statistics work I did not understand or want to spend more time to comprehend than I have to. I had a decent dinner, best lukewarm lasagna ever, at my sister's new home near Jacksonville Maryland. I may be off to play some much-needed Final Fantasy XI. I worked from 9:1PM Eastern gathering carts in the rain, helping customers load groceries into cars, and greeting customers. I guess $16 in tip money isn't bad for four hours of work and I get about $8 an hour. I know it sucks if you have a high paying career but alas I am a mere college student who doesn't have decent university job connections. I will manage. Take care fellow readers and please keep in touch. Current Mood:  blahCurrent Music: Hard drive humming | | Tuesday, April 6th, 2004 | | 12:20 am |
My first journal entry
Hello people of the internet. Finally, the Matt has…… (looks at the visitors of my journal) A LIVE JOURNAL ACCOUNT! If youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadddddd what the Matt… IS RANTING Oh man, doing the Dwane Johnson hommage is really pheraputic since I had a stresfull day gathering carts at work, and doing schoolwork online and I still cannot complete papers on time. I guess stress is comming up to me. I am normally a good student but if I don't have 100% focus, then why bother. Ah, the joys of Business Ethics. At least I do my other Business Ethics work on time. Anyhow, I must try to find my other Live Journal Friends, thank you for reading, and hope you get to read my next live Journal post. Current Mood: lethargicCurrent Music: Sound of PC fans moving |
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